so i'm leaving in the morning, today before i left my love i started to cry, as did he. i'm going to miss him sooo much...*sigh*

well, tomorrows my last day in NYC and my last day with with my shadow. yes my shadow, i will explain-

your shadow is an archetype that shows up as the guiding female figure for males and male figure for females in your dreams, and it represents your deep down feminimity (masculenity) and the woman every man (man every woman) has inside him (her). when you meet your shadow in real life, that person is basically your soulmate and you fall madly and deeply in love with her (him) very quickly. he is my shadow, i know it, if i was born a guy and had the same experiances he did, i would be him.

thats it. at the age of 15 i've found the one person for me, my love life and happiness, all in this one person. how that is possible, for one person to hold so much meaning to another i don't understand, and maybe i never will. he is like my oxygen, i went away for 2 weeks and it was like i couldn't breath. hes is my life, and without him, i am nothing. but it's scary, just knowing that someone like him is alive, aloud to walk this earth with this power over me, make me melt, make me fall and crumble, make me grow. since i've been with him, i've learned to love myself, i'd never admit it to him or anyone else but i feel better bout myself, i can look in the mirror and like the person whos looking back at me, and thats never happened to me before. *sigh*